Blah, Blah, Negative Energy.

I've just realized it...
Since my birthday, i've been just full of absolute negative energy!!!
i feel like not dealing or talking to anyone, and it really messes with my head.... it's like the negative energy that has mysteriously risen, is causing me to mind-fck myself! (fsjdfohwnfufhjs0resw?!! )
I don't know why, or what's bothering me, but i have a big ball of black and gray to give to the world and this is NOT healthy at all... i'm just feeling grumpy and blaming and whining.... (like, right now for instance) i lack motivation and money and it messes with my mojo as well... lol.
I know people say it's normal to feel like this sometimes, blah, blah, etc. but i don't want to feel this way... i'm an eternal optimist, an extremely happy go-lucky wearing bright colors and smiling 90% of the time....
I declare that i WILL terminate these negative feelings by the end of this week.

Anyways, you guys have a good productive week and remember to SMILE! 
(yeah, of course we're gonna smile after you just spread negative-ness with what we've just read...) LOOL.
I'm sorry, i just needed to get it out of my chest because my Twitter followers don't care at all, and my Facebook friends will just comment incessantly about my positive personality and will think i'm acting suicidal... (ahh,, the dramatic puertorricans taking everything to extremes....)

Not having internet access SUCKS. 
Not having sufficient money for personal expenses SUCKS.
but soon i will be fixing that... and will be writing more. Let's hope for the best!

So....  I recently had a BIRTHDAY! yay! yay! Go me! Go me! and this is the first lesson i've learned so far:

Not being a priority of someone you really like/liked just because your poor-ness broke-ness no-money having, makes you "unaccessible and hard to spend time with".... SUCKS.
since when? when did the stupid laws of flirting dating & spending time with a potential lay-date become so OVERRATED? i mean, c'mon... us poor people want some lovin' too! :D 
I'm seriously considering going full-on hippie mode where i eat what i plant, move into a treehouse and dance in the rain.... If YOU are also a low middle class hopeless romantic yourself and suffer from having to meet up to the expectations of people who cannot simply appreciate a humble simple relationship not based in money or cars, look for someone who DOES accept you for who you are! Look for someone who WANTS to be with you, who WANTS to spend time with you. yeahh.

"Semana Santa" / Spring Break

Yeeah baby... It's that week of the year!
Today is already Friday of that specific week... :'(  *starts to cry..
Why?! Why week?! Why did you end so fast?!!! notfairatall.
Anyways, still, it has been good...
I've gone to the beach 3 times, so far... Got a suntan #yeahhhboii, mingled & flirted of course, meditated on life-love and other crap, practiced some sign language, fell in love with Stumbleupon (it is soooo useful, if you don't know about it, today is your lucky day! Google it! ) annnd i renewed my love vows with the ocean... It was SOOOO ROMANTIC (WAVES, BIKINIS, GOOD MUSIC, THE SUN, THE MOON AND ME)
so yeah, and i slept ALOT, got my "beauty sleep, i'm feeling refreshed.. :D
So... Things i was thinking about these days were:
-people who can easily move their way in & out of friendzones... What's up with that? You're probably like, whatdoumean?? Well, i mean, when for example, you are attracted to someone who knows you're attracted to them, and maybe has confessed they are attracted to you as well.. so then, you guys kinda become friends because this person doesn't-hasn't-won't make a move...and what they do is, they put themselves in the friendzone... :O whaaaat? Yup. Then, they decide to flirt and see if they can get somethin' somethin' on random moments... Because instead of hitting on you, they act like they're only interested in a pg-13 friendship, when secretly, it's all part of their 'master plan to have v.i.p. access in and out of the friendzone of comfort they wisely created themselves! #Omgshockerr :O (*scary creepy music playing)
Has this happened to you??? Watch out people! Mind Fckers, Mind Fckers everywhere! Lol.
-another thing, so yeah, the people who get out of a monogamous relationship and decide they want to be poligamous & carefree sexually active fun all day kind of people, so they start flirting with everyone they know to see who's up for it... Then, one person grants this access for random guilt-free adventure.. until, Mr. or Mrs. Poligamy hey let's have fun, tells you that they met a serious monogamous adoring person who wants to get to know them better, so they start living a double life with the crazy sex kinkiness during the night and having quality time with the sharing means caring person during the day.... Hmph. #talkabouthavingyourcakeandeatingittoowhilesleepinginthebedyoujustmade.. wait, whaat?! Lol. Yeah..  i like making up stories... But it happens...
People, you just gotta know when to stop the games, learn how to play them, master a how-to book of Mind Fcking for Dummies, be honest, ask for honesty, smile and get your groove on! We on vacation baby! Omg, i sound so informal, hahahah, i sound like i'm writing this while i watch a marathon of a combination between all of Tyler Perry & Martin Lawrence movies, Undercover Brother, some Dave Chappelle & Death at a Funeral... Well, Sweet Dreams! ;*